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So I think I still like the boy who can make pretty hamburgers, just like I did last year.
I think he might have took some of my heart.
 I mean come on, you cannot tell me that is not cute.  DUDE I MISS TINA, ELI, AND LINE SO MUCH. I love you girls. And Tara I love you tooooo! Yah, I kinda like you. ;] |
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Heres some thoughts:
You don't have to change friends if you understand that friends change.
No matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and, you just have to forgive them for that.
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
It's taking me a long time to become who I want to be, but once I get there it will be worth the wait.
You can keep going long after you think you can't, that's what friends and family and God is for.
You have two options to control your attitude or to let your attitude control you, and it's totally your choice.
Sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
Sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
It isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, sometimes you have to forgive yourself.
Just because two people argue doesn't mean they don't love each other, and just because two people don't argure doesn't mean they do love each other.
People can look at the same exact thing, and see something totally different.
The people you care about most in life are taken from you to soon.
Me and two friends made up tonight, and it just honestly feels good. Because I hated who I had become and who they had become, and you know what, no matter how bad you think a situation is you still have control over it, and saying sorry doesn't always make things better but it is definatly a start. In high school we have such big egos, and we never think we are in the wrong, but you know what, WE ARE IN THE WRONG SOMETIMES, and it takes a big person to admit that, and we could both do that, and hopefully we will work this out, cause that will make things so much easier.
Eli, thank you for the post card. I love you!
Line, I miss you so much. I love you!
Tara, I love you, I am so glad I have you!
Tina Marie, I love you sooo much, and I cannot wait to see you again. Best friends forever and ever!
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HAHAHAHAHA, don't let my myspace pics fool you, I look like a scrub half the time, LOL LOL LOL LOL.
Okay bye.
Holla @ me. I am gonna be gone the rest of the weekend. 670-2215.
HECKS YES, no school Tuesday.
<3 Tina I miss you so much, thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for being my angel and my best friend. I cannot wait to see you again. I love you!
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[ Friday September 1st 2006 @ 11:27pm] |
Since I am bored I will tell you all about myself.
I don't care what you think about me, seriously.
Well, I am sure you all know my name is Holly.
I really love my friends, expecially my bests TTEL!
I am really bad at showing I care, and I am really bad at keeping friendships.
I love to laugh, and sometimes I laugh to much, or to loud.
I really don't like new things, they scare me. I adjust easily.
I hate fighting. But even more I hate being confronted.
Actually, I just hate being uncomfortable.
I hate rejection, it makes me feel horrible, and unworthy.
I am slowly learning that you can't trust everyone, and that hurts so bad.
Beacause trust is important to me. It hurts even worse when your friends break your trust.
Although, I am a huge hypocrite, and I have lost trust from many.
I am a Christian. I am not a very good one. But I would love to spend forever with God.
Because then all my fears and flaws will go away, and I will be happy.
I love to Pray, it solves anything and everything.
I ALWAYS have crushes on boys who won't give me the time of day.
I think it's because I am scared. I am scared of almost everything.
That goes back to the whol rejection thing. And I am just scared to give my heart away.
I love to dance, more than anything. It makes me happy.
I dance at my school. We are pretty good, and I love the girls in my class.
I am also really good at dancing to Secondhand. :]
Kendal is pretty good too.
Chances are you have seen my buttcrack, I can't seem to keep that thing under control.
I love life so much, but it definetly is more than I can handle at times.
But I know that no matter what God will help me through it, along with my friends and family.
And my Angel Tina will help me too.
Even though sometimes I can't stand them, I love my family.
Expecially my sister and brother.
We might fight sometimes, but they always have my back on everything, and they make me laugh.
I really can't think of anything else.
But seriously, I am sort of getting use to things.
And even if I am not completely happy, I am getting completely content with where I am at.
Life could be so much better, but why dwell on that.
Seriously, I am starting to just be happy with who I am and what I have.
I might as well start loving myself, right?
By the way, I love you all.
Expecially you Tina, you mean so much to me. I can't wait to see you again. I love you!
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[ Sunday August 27th 2006 @ 7:11pm] |
Lol @ how no one ever comments my shit.
Advanced Algebra- Corbin.
Social Issues- Tate.
American Government- Peters.
Dance- VanHekken.
Chemistry- McDonald.
English 11- Olson.
Okay. Bye.
<3 Tina I miss you so much, I can't wait to see you again. I love you!
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[ Tuesday August 22nd 2006 @ 12:06am] |
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Last night Kendal, Alexis, and I camped out in my back yard.
We are awesome!
We even took pictures, how freaking sweet.
Yah they have some sweet moves, be jealous.
And Kendal thinks she's and extreme camper.
Extreme camper my butt.
The only thing she is extreme at is having EXTREMELY BAD AIM.
This picture is proof:
We had fun.
They are sweet. Woohooo.
Ashley hung out with me today, it was cool.
We got our hair did, and went to the mall.
Zack is on his way over, we are renting movies.
I am gonna be Ashley at Family Video, because Holly has a HUGE late fee, and Ashley doesn't. Yah, that's how I roll.
<3 Tina I miss you so much. I can't wait to see you again.
I love you!!! Best friends forever!
P.S Screw LJ CUT.
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[ Thursday August 17th 2006 @ 1:48am] |
I had icecream twice today.
HAHAHAH FATTTTTTY!
P.s I have a NEW crush.
Yah he's a cutie. ;]
<3 Tina I miss you so much.
I can't wait to see you, you mean so much to me.
You will always be my best friend no matter what.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, <3<3!
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Last night I went to Unity with Joe Leafers, it was alot of fun. I got to see people that I haven't seen in a long time.
Ex. Gabe, Brandon, Kevin, Nick Wags, Nick, Bre, Leah, Jake.
It was really fun, and Hawk Nelson was great. :] I was in a really bad mood but Brandon Eikenberry is super cool.
He helped me through alot last night without even realizing. He's just a great friend. Probably one of the best I have. [Besides my BFF's TTEL] But he really is a good friend. I am glad I finally feel like I have friends and feel like they care about me. I haven't felt this way in a while. I love you all! You guys are super great!! :]
<3 Tina I miss you alot. I can't wait to see you again. You are my best friend, I can't explain how much I love you. But trust me, when I see you again, you will find out! I love you alot.
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Hey.
I am giving up myspace for a while.
So if you want to talk to me, you can on here.
Or you can IM me, HollyBaby0.
Or you can call me, 719-1523 or 670-2215.
Talk to you later!!
Love you all.
<3 I love you Tina, I can't wait to see you again.
You mean so much to me, and I hope you are having the BEST time of your life.
I am sure you are. I hope you found your prince.
I bet you are one of the most beautiful angels ever.
I love you, thank you for everything.
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[ Saturday August 5th 2006 @ 6:48pm] |
Hey guess what, I like summer.
Well I hope you are all having a great summer.
P.s. 
This is my lover Lj, he is the best boyfriend ever. Be jealous.
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[ Monday July 3rd 2006 @ 12:33am] |
Wow, I don't know what is wrong with me.
But I am REALLY sick of everything right now.
No matter what happens I just miss her more and more.
Even on the good days.
It's been so long and I am still not okay with it.
And like everyone I thought would be there for me isn't.
I mean I have a few, but mostly just Tara, Eli, and Line.
I don't know.
I really thought I had more, but who knows.
Wow, why am I complaining.
I guess it's just because tonight was probably the worst night I have had in a long time.
I just really miss her alot.
Wow, she was so great and so amazing.
I really wish I still had her here.
I miss everything about her.
Life really shouldn't be this hard.
<3 I love you Tina.
Alot, more than you will ever know.
I really hope you all are making good decisions.
But I guess..it's your own life.
But please have some common sense.
Thanks. <3
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[ Saturday June 17th 2006 @ 11:31pm] |
I haven't updated here in a LONG time.
I can take my road test in 11 days. Yay!
Summer has been so amazing already.
I love it, alot.
I plan on dancing alot.
I plan on smiling alot.
I plan on camping alot.
I plan on falling in love alot.
I plan on skinny dipping alot.
I plan on laughing alot.
I plan on hugging alot.
I plan on kissing alot.
I plan on laying out alot.
I plan on going to bon fires alot.
I plan on having fun alot.
Yes, this is going to be great.
I really really like this one boy, a whole bunch.
He makes this one face sometimes, and I love it and hate it at the same time.
He's so amazing though, we are going to fall in love this summer.
I won't let it be any other way.
<3 Summer romances, always the best!
Tina, I love you.
I know Heaven is way better than here.
I am glad you are there! <3
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For once [I think];
I am honestly finally okay with moving on.
you aren't more than just a boy.
and maybe I don't really believe it.
but I do have it hammered into my brain.
so I will atleast act like I don't care.
do what you want with your life.
OBVIOUSLY
you and I aren't made for each other.
so I don't EVER want to waste another second looking back.
and I never want to waste another second wondering how it could have been.
because that's not how it will ever be or how it ever was.
soo good luck with every girl you ever like.
honestly you deserve the best.
you are a great guy and I want you to be happy with everything you do.
I hope you wish me the same luck.
if not, that's fine, some other boy will one day.
I am sure you are not the only WRONG boy that I will get hung up on.
I will just learn from it, hopefully.
Tina, thanks for listening tonight.
thanks for helping me cool down.
I need to do this, help me get through it.
help me be strong.
I cannot wait to see you!
I love you baby!
P.s.
Tina I hope your birthday was AMAZING.
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omgsh, thank you EVERYONE who showed up last night.
honestly, I love my friends.
my birthday party was amazing.
Tara, Eli, Kendra, Kendal, Jessica, Jodi, Kari, Mindi, Linzee, Bre, Ashley, Raelynn, Amanda, Brittany, Gabe, Kevin, Brandon, Nick, Adam, Geiger, and Chaz!
thank you for coming, you are awesome I love you all.
although there was a little drama, over all it was; awesome.
hanging out, walking tacos, embarressing stories, BIRTHDAY KISS, smores, gymnastics, laying under the stars talking, scary stories, ping-pong protection, 3 hours of sleep, pancakes.
honestly, it was great. thank you.
Tina, I wish you could of been there.
and if those noises were you, thank you for being there.
I LOVE YOU, honestly, I wanted you there so bad.
please wait for me, because I miss you.
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[ Monday May 22nd 2006 @ 11:04pm] |
I swear, I have the greatest friends ever lately.
I am glad to, because without them I would be NOTHING right now.
On Friday, I turned 16!
It was awesome.
School was super easy just kinda a relaxed day in all of my classes.
Thank you everyone who got me gifts, honestly, you didn't have to, and it meant alot to me.
Kendal and Gabe took me to Taco Bell for lunch. We got tons of free stuff.
Then after school, Michelle, Chaz, and I, went back for more free stuff.
Around 5:00ish, Tara came and picked Chaz and I up.
We went and saw Tina's grave---BEST PRESENT EVER, thank you Tara.
That was the first time I saw it, I was glad to spend part of my birthday with her.
Then we went to the beach and did handstands and what-not.
We went to the Tiny Houses, to Meijers, and then got a pizza.
We went back to Chaz's house and hung out. Eli came over around 10:30ish.
We watched the notebook and took pics.
Then I came home. That was an amazing birthday. THANK YOU EVERYONE!
Saturday, I went to a movie with my Dad, Sister, Brother, and the psycho lady.
Then Kendal and Sam picked me up around 9ish.
We went over to Gabe's and watched a movie with him, Nick, and Blake.
We left around 11:45ish.
Sunday, I went to church with Kendal and Sam, it was fun.
Then I came home and hung out with Ashley and Tessa.
They left around 6ish. And I slept for the rest of the night.
Today, school was okay.
This boy keeps ditching me, and it hurts my feelings.
Kendal and I went to lunch, it was nice to talk about EVERYTHING together.
After school, Ashley and I went to a scrapbook store, Hobby Lobby, and Meijers.
My mom told me I cannot drive with Tara anymore, which pisses me off.
She is my EVERYTHING right now. She gets where I am at in life.
How can I go without seeing her. I need her.
Then around 7:00ish, Malorey asked me to go bowling.
Haley picked Nick and I up around 7:30ish.
We met Malorey and Danae there at 7:45ish.
We bowled one game.
Then David showed up, and slowly John and Mikey did too.
We played three games.
Lately, things have been going good for me.
But I miss Tina like CRAZY. Everything reminds me of her.
And that makes me want her back, I wish I had ONE MORE DAY with her.
One more day to tell her EVERYTHING face to face. I need her to wait for me.
I need her to be happy. I love that girl so much.
I love her more than anything, and I just want to see her again soo bad.
R.I.P Tina Marie Puffer. 05-30-88 to 04-27-06
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My birthday is in 6 days.
May 19th. Remember that.
Anyways on a much different note.
This week sucked. I was called a Liar twice. A bad friend three times. And I missed Tina 9234720747392759623 times.
This has been the hardest week without her. Expecially Thursday and Friday.
I need her so bad. I feel like NOTHING without her.
And it sucks like I am so proud for people moving on, but you have no idea how scarey that is for me.
Everything is scarey. I am scared to be alone but at the same time, I am scared to be close.
I am scared of loosing everything I though was secure again.
I miss you soo much Tina. I need you babe. Please don't ever give up on me. And please don't ever leave me.
I love you. You are my strength and my stronghold in life.
Don't leave, please. And I am begging you, wait for me.
I cannot wait for the day I see you again. It is going to be great.
Tara- Thanks for everything lately.
Line, Eli, and Everyone else- I am sorry.
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hey everyone this is katy!
well. . holly dosent kno im updating her journal for her but HOL.. i just wanted to let you kno that you are one hell of a friend! i love you so much .. each day i feel like we get closer and closer.. and u are definately the one who i go to when i need a shoulder to lean on because hol ur awesome and i kno my secrets are safe with you!.hahaha im excited to hang out tonight! we can make another crazy music video and maybe eat another huge bag of doritos..well hol there is not much else i can say except for i love you , thank you and ahh.. ur the bestest friend could have!!
love u tons~
comment if you think hol is the bestest best friend and best friend could have!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
kate
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[ Tuesday May 2nd 2006 @ 4:42pm] |
I honestly didn't think today would be so hard.
Since I saw her yesterday, and knew what she looked like and all that.
And since I knew that it was going to happen.
But it was hard.
How can I live without her?
Everyday she reminded me of how much love she had for me.
She reminded me of how smart and funny I was.
I need that in my life.
I need HER in my life.
She is the only one who could ever do that for me.
You could all try; but it wouldn't be the same. Not even close to the same.
I miss her already. And it hasn't even been that long.
How can I miss her so much in 5 days?
I really hope they picked a nice spot to bury her in.
She deserves the best. A place where pretty flowers are, and in the shade for on hot summer days.
I just want it to be perfect, and beautiful, and amazing. Because she was.
The speech her sister wrote was amazing.
Saying this wasn't a goodbye speech. It was a see you later speech.
That made me happy, because I hope I get to see her again, sometime, when it is my turn to go.
I hope I am worthy for Heaven.
So I can tell her all the things I am denying right now.
And all the things I wish I wouldn't be scared to say.
I hope she knows I was okay with letting her go.
Because I know she deserves this more than anyone else.
SHE GETS TO HAVE FUN WITH GOD AND DANCE WITH JESUS.
Ahh, you have no idea how beautiful she was. I wish I would of told her that more.
BEST FRIENDS ALWAYS AND FOREVER.
I promise Tina, I will always be here.
Please talk to me sometimes.
Expecially on bad days, when I know you are the only who could cheer me up.
And please, I am begging you.
If I get into Heaven, please wait at the gate for me.
Because you are the first person I want to see when I get there.
I love you Tina Marie Puffer.
You will be in my heart forever and ever and ever and always.
I promise!!!
May 30, 1988 - April 27, 2006.
You are in my heart forever.
And you are still my lungs.
Your spirt is keeping them pumping.
I love you!
I hope they got to give you the note I wrote you. Or bury it under ground with you.
And I hope it some how reaches you in Heaven.
Because I want you to understand everything.
I love you babe.
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I hope you all still pray for Tina.
And please, don't cry over her.
I mean, YES, I break down sometimes, and I cry alot.
But keep it to a minimum.
Because your tears are not going to save Tina.
But your prayers will.
So please, please, pray for Tina.
She is my best friend.
And if you only met her one time I am sure you realize why I love her so much.
She is soo nice, never judges ANYONE.
She is beautiful, I mean just look at her big smile, and long blonde hair.
She is amazing, and it sucks.
Because I can never find the words to say when I talk about her.
All I know is I love her sooo much.
And you should REALLY pray for her.
Even if all you say is; "God, please let Tina be strong and courageous, do not let her fear anything, and please protect her. Amen."
Please, please, please just say that prayer.
You don't know how much this means to me.
And you probably never will.
But just know, it means soooo much, more than words can explain.
And I am so thankful for everyone who has prayed for her this far.
I love you all.
Please, be safe.
And please think about your decisions.
PRAY FOR TINA, PLEASE.
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Hey, how was your Spring Break?!
I hope good.
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